Sadness

So far away from myself yet so near, what and why is this that i so truly and deeply fear? So much sadness, loss and pain, so much character built yet the building nearly drove me insane. So far down the rabbit hole i fell, will i ever find my way out? Only time will tell...
So many times have i seen the writing on the wall, oh how many times did the mighty fall. Paradise lost and found, maybe i can keep it this time round? For once just know which way i am actually heading, instead of always sitting, hating, regetting...
So many 'what if's' constantly in your head floating around, trust me is much fucking worse than what it sounds. Always picking on festering sores freventing them from healing, over and over hating the time and innosense that this shit was constantly stealing...


'Time you enjoy wasting, was not wasted.'

John Lennon