Tuesday, 23 October 2012


Continuing to live life as a victim of circumstanse, forever focusing on what's wrong with everything and everybody will never ever bring the life desired - it will only bring one thing: more of whatever it is we're wanting so desperately to change. So if we've been in a constant search for ways to fix all the things around us we don't like, or even if we have allowed them to be there but still haven't liked them, then we've been in a constant state of focusing on what we haven't wanted. For years! So intensely conditioned to focus only on the negatives and nothing else, generation upon generation being programmed completely, totally and utterly wrong, literally from the day we were born, this poison has been spoonfed to us with all the love and good intentions that who ever it is that raised us has in their hearts(if you are one of the lucky ones that is, otherwise it got viciously screamed at and or violently beaten into you, which also makes alot of sense as to why we have an even worse and more negative view of everything and everyone including yourself). Completely oblivious of the fact that from day one they have been imprisoning us with the generation upon generation of misinformation being passed from parent to child, lovingly and with so much care and patience. All their hates, fears and regrets imprinted in you not through their words alone but more importantly through their actions and the way they think and feel about themselves and the world being reflected into your reality without them even being aware of what they are doing, living and creating...

'Open your eyes, look within. Are you satisfied with the life you're living?'

Bob Marley - Exodus

Monday, 15 October 2012

Thought number...i dunno???

So much to say but i cant find the words, so much to do but i dont
know where to start. Such a radical change in my life in such a short
period of time. Litteraly went from dark to light in one realization,
not even a choice but a realization and after that things just started
falling into place. for the first time im excited about the future and
all the happiness and prosperity coming my way rather than making the
mistake about worrying about when im gonna fall into darkness again.
So much misery i caused for myself and so unnecessarily and the
saddest part of it all is that i wasnt even aware of what i was doing
to myself. Wallowing around im my self inflicted misery for so long,
pushing myself into this deep and dark groove while convincing myself
that i wasnt in control, nevermind being able to get out of it.
Hectically indoctrinated by all the negative thoughts and messages
being sold to me at the cost of my freedom and my soul with the sole
purpose of creating this stigma that i am powerless, have no control
over my life, my choices and my free will. Being spoon-fed so much
misinformation and feeding into it more and more as each day
progressed. So sad but so true...

'Our society is run by insane people for insane objectives. I think
we're being run by maniacs for maniacal ends and I think I'm liable to
be put away as insane for expressing that. That's what's insane about

John Lennon