You just have to love life

You know you get those days where everything is just fucking wrong, it doesnt matter which way you look at it, things are just fucked up. You can try and convince yourself a million fucking times a minute that every cloud has a silver lining blah-blah-cliche but i dont fucking see it. Some serious shit bothering me and i dont have a fucking clue as to what it is? Just not in the mood for anything, sitting starving my ass off but not in the mood to lift my ass and walk 10 fucking measly steps to th kitchen not even to mention getting up in the 1st fucking place. All i wanna do is cry? no tears, scream? too much effort, punch the wall? no energy and then that getting up thing again, moan and bitch in someones ears? not in the mood for people. I mean what the fucking? Im sitting here writing cause im not in the mood for people? For fuck sakes, im starting to depress myself even more. Going insane, were here to experience pain? Crazy ass shit, yip, thats about it. Losing my mind, still feel like the only one of my kind, on this fucking planet i dont belong, you must be a dumbass not to see that basically everything here is wrong. The system is fucking us hard, wouldnt even know where to start.. Dont have a fucking clue why im going on about shit anyway, fuck that mission. I mean what fucking difference does it make anyway. Im not even making sense to myself, now i know how people feel most of the time aswell as understanding all the 'what the fuck??' stares i get-wow! Anyway...whatever and who cares...